I'm feeling...stretched.  Not busy or stressed, not being pulled in two different directions based on a decision I have to make.  I just feel it.  For some reason, the past still haunts me.  I say for some reason, although I know exactly what that reason is.  The Enemy, ruler of this world, loves to remind us of the us we used to be.  Even more so, loves to remind me how easily I slipped into that version of me.  And thats where he can get me every time.  Any reminder, no matter how small, sends my mind into a whirlwind of questions;  who am I?  who was I?  why am I?  who should I be?  Endless questions.  And of course, instead of immediately going to God's Word for answers to those questions, I prefer to chew on them a while.  I wait until they taste disscusting and I can't stand the process anymore and then, THEN I seek Him. 
So my quest now is to find my spiritual gift.  Sounds hokey, right? 
I certainly don't feel gifted.  I don't feel like I deserve any gifts, don't feel like I have any.  But, according to this new, really really big book steven bought, ALL believers in Christ have at least one spiritual gift given to them by the Holy Spirit in order to accomplish His work in their lives.  (the book, Systematic Theology) 
Soooooooooo

I can cross a few off the list.

Definitely NOT speaking in tongues.  Lord knows, I speak enough in my own language, and without God's approval most of the time.  No other languages need to be exposed to the sound of my voice.
Pretty sure its NOT healing or miracles.  Why do I know this?  Easy.  Im vain.  The second I healed someone of an illness or turned water into wine, the entire world would know and my head would be as big as my minivan.  That, and I would probably become an alcoholic.  Neither one would be good.
And from what I know about my lack of patience, Im tend to think it would not be the gift of teaching.  There are times, with my own children, when the ask me a question, the thought that comes to my mind is "do you seriously not know the answer to that?"  Now, I don't actually say that to them, but I think it.  That doesn't seem very Holy Spirit like, right?
So that leaves prophesy, edification and discernment.

Maybe its discernment, since I have clearly discerned that four of the seven are no goes for me?

All this time Ive been questioning my spiritual gift status and all I had to do was blog about it.  Awesome.